It means that you search for genuine Happiness, but it continuously eludes you. You might even feel guilty for expressing your unhappiness, because on the surface you have an amazing life. Maybe you don’t admit it to anyone, even to yourself to a large degree.

It might be difficult to turn to others, because so many people want something from you, or don’t know how to help you. It’s hard to know who to trust. Success, wealth, and fame bring their own unique internal and external problems. Then of course there’s the negative beliefs, trauma, and challenges we all have regardless of our profession.

Guilt and Shame

Another main culprit in perpetual unhappiness, misery, and self-sabotage is buried guilt and shame. Sometimes it’s so buried you’re not aware of it, or to the degree it’s affecting you. It might also make you engage in self-destructive behaviors (past or present) that further the guilt and shame.

Maybe you’ve done things that you regret and are ashamed of. I know guilt and shame personal and up close (see About pg). It’s insidious and wreaks havoc on your life and Happiness. And since you can’t change the past, how do you become free of it? I know how. I can help you heal, forgive yourself, and have a spiritual awakening! Because being disconnected from your Higher Power is the source of most problems.

Seeing anew

It’s also about seeing things from your Soul’s perspective. Here’s something you might not have considered. Seeing yourself only through ego is fearful, depressing, lonely, isolating, and basically a downright hellish existence.

But seeing yourself through Soul, well, that’s the complete opposite. Happy. Fulfilled. Loved. Peaceful. Alive. And much more!

Genuine Happiness can be yours. Everything in this world changes. How can one possibly find security, stability, or faith in a such a shifting world? With your Soul Power, that’s how! However you do it, I highly encourage you begin now.

When I was 18 years old, a horrible car accident introduced me to hell. My 3-year-old cousin, Christian, was like a son to me. He had just fallen asleep in the VW van seat next to me. We lived in San Miguel de Allende, Mexico. I was on my way to pay the workers in my aunt’s rug weaving business.

He wasn’t even supposed to be with me, but there was mix up with the nanny. I had a black out for a few seconds and hit a tree head on. Nobody could believe I was alive, let alone not severely mangled. Christian survived too …but in a coma for one week, then passed.

The guilt was overwhelming. The pain intense. It was a freakish unexplainable black out. Another aspect of the nightmare was right before the accident. I was thinking to myself, “Wow, I’m learning how to run a business, learning Spanish, right after high school…life is going pretty good!”

Then wham, something terrible happened. It imprinted on me that if life is good, something bad will happen. Happiness equaled tragedy. For the next 27 years of my life, up until January 2012, I engaged is self-destructive behaviors.

At the same time, I was very spiritual. When I was around 19 years old, an obsessive passion came over me, and has been the strongest driving force in my life ever since – To live much more as my Higher Self/Soul. Then in October 1997, I had a spiritual awakening in Santa Cruz, CA. My Higher Self came to me in my mind, surfing the starry sky on a lit-up surfboard. Cosmic white light sprayed as he carved waves through space.